Feeble minds
Feeble minds
Feeble minds
They just don't understand me... or maybe it's because they don't agree... It is most likely that they don't agree and thus don't want to hear what I have to say - which is fine, if only I would move on.
Today is a beautiful day - but this week, WOW - the weather has been insane. So it snowed on Monday and it is going to hit 70 degrees by Saturday. Spring break is approaching, and with it, my mom's departure... :'(
I feel sort of hopeless. It's the scariest reality I have had to face head on, I think it's just the distance that I fear the most. Because being away from my mom, like right now - being at College, is manageable because I know that I have the convenience of going home to her if need be, or when I please... but a whole country away... There is no spontaneity - everything has to be planned out, and if something were to happen that would call to my direct attention, I am still a whole 5 or 6 hour flight away. Besides all of that, we still have the fact that the length of her stay is not definite... aka I don't know when this whole mess will be figured out. At the same time, I feel like I have so much support from friends, more so then I do from my own family. I feel this way because even in the midst of my mom leaving, no one but my grandparents have actually offered for me to come live with them if I need somewhere to go... I mean, I don't want to undermine any hardships that they are going through either, but to hear the simple words that sure, I could stay there if I needed a place to stay would be nice... You would think family would be the first to reach out. Alhamdulillah for my sisters in Islam.
I have been wanting to go camping for a while now... I am thinking maybe the Tuesday that I return from Texas, that I will take a solo getaway to my most favorite spot on the Earth at the moment... I have not been to enough places in the world, to find a better spot, but I like this one just fine. Or I thought that if I get the special urge to, that I might go to the beach. I have yet to spend a night on the beach, and I am very eager to do so. I shouldn't be making too many plans though, I don't get my next pay check until next Thursday!
I am at work at the moment. It's a pretty chill job, especially if I am working at the office on South Campus. I think I am gonna peace out. Oh, ps. My shahada will be, inshAllah, on March 27.
Salaam
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